Ten Months and Counting

 

A friend sent this to me today.  I started reading it, and thought, "I'm not in the place she thinks I am anymore," but then, I kept reading. 

And I thought, "Wow; now I know why she sent it."

I choose to remember the positives from being left.  I choose to remember the positives from being in a relationship with a broken individual.  I choose to remember not everyone knows how to commit and love at a deeper level.  I choose to remember not everyone can love unconditionally, stay through rough patches or ill health, or be in it for the long run.

I choose to remember and embrace the gifts given to me by traveling this hard road.  God has been more than good to me.  This is my story...

I choose to remember you

Not by how you hurt me

But by how you taught me to heal

Not by how you left me

But by how you taught me to never abandon myself

Not by how you broke me

But by how you taught me to rebuild myself

Not by how you dimmed my light

But by how you helped me to shine

Not by how you kept me trapped in a place of comfort

But by how you empowered me to leave my comfort zone

Not by how you left me feeling weak

But by how you taught me what it means to be strong

Not by how you tried to control me

But by how you taught me to be free

Not by who you told me who I was

But by how you taught me to define myself

And above all

I choose to remember you

Not by how you were unable to love me

But by how you taught me

To love myself.

No matter where you are in your brokenness, choose to remember the things you were taught. Choose to remember the doors God opened. Choose to remember you survived!

I never thought I'd be fully healed and restored at ten months past David leaving our family. But here I am. New opportunities, new friends, new roads to travel. The hurt inflicted will not define me. The abandonment will not cripple me. The rejection will not define me.

I am a child of God, and I will embrace all that He bestows upon me. I hope the poem above will inspire you, like it did me, for the times of brokenness you may be traveling through.

God is good, and He will rescue you, protect you, and revive you! Happy Tuesday my friends!